How do you think about Sex and the City?

My life was chaos with boys.

I was serious with everything whole of my life. I was serious with my study, my daily life, my job and of course boys too. I am the kind of people who never try the impossible boys but rather wait for the true love, just wait... So my life is passing by like I am a nun... Then one day, I asked myself, why I have no boy friend? I though I am an intelligent women so I demand high standards of my man. He must be attractive (I mean good looking), funny, smart, open-minded, self-confident, warmhearted, successful and so on. But is there this kind of man really exiting? Frankly speaking, I have no answer for that....

With this question, I went out with two other female friends who share the similar miserable questions with me together. We talked. Both of them have boy friends, but they are not happy. Wei's problem is, she wants to get marry but her boyfriend does not. And Lei's problem is vice versa-- her boyfriend wants to get marry but she does not. So, suddenly, I realized, I know nothing about man. And I know nothing about relationship.

Of course, I am not a nun. I had relationships. But non of them is long, not longer than 1 year. why is this happen? I do not know. Sometimes I am interested in a man, but after a while, maybe 2 weeks, the feeling is gone. Sometimes, men are interested in me, but most of time I do not want to give them chance. Well, sometimes, when I am interested in someone, he does not like me. So why why why why?

While I am single, so it is ok I am bothered by these questions. But why my female friends are not happy with their relationship? People are together, but they are not happy?

With all these questions, three of us decided to find the answer out. How? We trust only the reality and practice explains everything. We decided to go out and date with different boys.

It is absolutely not the real sex and the city. The whole story from the movie is too far away from normal life. But the sprite of being an independent women, enjoying the currently life, purchasing our own happiness encourages, at least me, a lot.

I want to be a happy girl, a real happy girl who is self confident, independent, attractive, mature. And I want to know man. I do not want to be kind of bitch who is sleeping or dating with random everyone man she met. But I want to know how man is thinking. In case, when I meet my true love, I won't miss it out. That is why I decided to go out with other two. And who knows what gonna happen? Well, in fact, something did happen.

I would like to write these down. Sometimes, they are interesting, sometimes they are sad, sometimes they are ending with nothing. But, I live in the real life, not a story or movie, so reality is reality, a little bit cruel, a little bit bitter, but a little bit sweet as well.